I had to write this in blood because the ink wouldn't stick

I sold 5 or 6 million but yo that ain't really shit

It was supposed to be different we were supposed to ride out

But too much shot his girl then shot himself in the mouth

Then the steady gang formed but very soon fell apart

'cause when you just doin' art with no loyalty in the heart

It's like catching alzheimer's all these niggas forgetting where they coming from

Had to slow it down wait a minute what we running from

This what we supposed to do here's what we supposed to be

I hated mtv for tryin' to play me like a mockery

But that don't bother me I just fulfilled my fucking contract

Small price to pay just to get your piece of your mind back

Mind back, backfire, assassination of my character

Just to make some millions off america

My younger sister erica just adopted a child

My older brother served 15 he made it out

Even though my father loved me I ain't seen him in a while

Had to fight my baby mama bitch give me my nigga now

'cause he's running out of time and I need him to understand

The way of the superior man I built a brand

Niggas talk about my taxes I done paid uncle sam

I'm surviving 'cause the minds eyes quicker than the hand

Heartbreak, disappointment, my mother died when I was 9 I just wanted to join her

Nah mister joiner you get to california

I got something for you to do it's like I was anointed

Resurrected, foud my purpose I remember meeting dre

Being nervous when I would kick my verses

I was virtually worthless, my whole life was a circus

I was sleeping with serpents and I thought they was worth it

I got a call from paul told me shit wasn't working

Exchanged words I told him tell me that shit in person

He probably told em (eminem) and by the way that he said it

Unapologetic, twisted made it about him

I seen slim and he said he didn't recognize me

Was it that or did he let another man define me

I don't know but now I gotta get this all behind me

Follow my calling when I used to follow niggas blindly

I wish I had a better relationship with my uncles

Blood relatives I could turn to when I'm feeling trouble

Talk about my struggles, my uncle john nail

He only put me on the phone with different females

Yeah this is such a such nephew tell her what's up

Ain't even ask about tremayne and gatlyn growing up

Fuck, I drink it all and I smashed a bottle

Self medicated, numb, but I'm a feel it tomorrow

It felt like pain and sorrow was like a second skin

But now the pain is gone I got my second wind

Only the strong live long you better settle in

I'm fighting forever I will never let the devil win

1983 that's when my journey begins

I searched everywhere for strength and only found it within

This for me and my kin still dying to live

Living life to the fullest till I see you again