I lost myself into the night

And I flew higher

Than I had ever

But I still felt small

I clipped my wings and fell from flight

To open water

And floated farther

Away from myself.

And I swam in the wakes of imposters

Just to feel what it's like to pretend

There's no dreams in the lakes only monsters

And the monsters are my only friends.

They're all that I was

And never could be.

Eyes in the dead still water

Tried but it pushed back harder

Cauterized and atrophied

This is my unbecoming

Knives in the backs of martyrs

Lives in the burning fodder

Cauterized and atrophied

This is my unbecoming.

You found me drifted out to sea

It's automatic

It's telepathic

You always knew me

And you laugh as I search for a harbor

As you point where the halo had been

But the light in your eyes has been squandered

There's no angel in you in the end.

And all that I was

I've left behind me.

Eyes in the dead still water

Tried but it pushed back harder

Cauterized and atrophied

This is my unbecoming

Knives in the backs of martyrs

Lives in the burning fodder

Cauterized and atrophied

This is my unbecoming.

Now I wait

This metamorphosis

All that is left is the change

Selfish fate

I think you made me this

Under the water I wait.

Eyes in the dead still water

Tried but it pushed back harder

Cauterized and atrophied

This is my unbecoming

Knives in the backs of martyrs

Lives in the burning fodder

Cauterized and atrophied

This is my unbecoming.