When I drive past a graveyard I still hold my breath

I guess on some level the thought of what's next

Makes my stomach hurt

When I get like that I don't know where to go with it

So I just say something inappropriate

Like must be nice to skip work.

If I act like I don't care it's 'cause I care too much

If I act like I'm not scared it's 'cause I'm scared as fuck

If I make a joke that you don't think is funny

About how you'll get all of my money after I die

It's 'cause if I don't laugh, I'll cry.

When I kiss you goodbye at the airport

And I say a plane crash is cheaper than divorce

I can't help it. no. I can't help it

Wish I could stop all these cyclical thoughts

Like one day you're here and the next day you're not

I know without you would kill me if I ever felt it.

If I act like I don't care it's 'cause I care too much

If I act like I'm not scared it's 'cause I'm scared as fuck

If I make a joke that you don't think is funny

About how you'll get all of my money after I die

It's 'cause if I don't laugh, I'll cry.

When I drive past a graveyard I still hold my breath

I guess on some level the thought of what's next

Makes my stomach hurt.