I'm not used to saying this out loud

So why do I feel so free?

Didn't know this piece of hell

That's peekin' through my heaven

Would comfort me.

I'm not used to losing my mind

But its pieces put me at peace

For months I'm okay with not knowing where I'm going

It liberates me.

I think I've lost control

Oh, oh, ah, ah...

I've lost it all

Oh, oh, ah, mm mm, mm mm...

I don't want to live here forever

But something 'bout this moment feels so right

Almost like the second chances start over

Just this one time, cause this time.

I think I've lost control, control

Oh, oh, ah, ah...

And I want to lose it all

Oh, oh, ah, mm mm, mm mm...

I'm not used to saying this out loud

So why do I feel so free?