So I took my medication

And I poured my trauma out

On some sad-eyed middle aged man's

Over-priced new leather couch.

And we argued about jesus

Finally found some middle ground

I said I'm cured.

And I've divvied up my anger

Into thirty separate parts

Keep the bad shit in my liver

And the rest around my heart.

And I'm still angry at my parents

For what their parents did to them

But it's a start.

But I ignore things

And I move sideways

'till I forget what

I felt in the first place.

At the end of the day

I know there are worse ways

To stay alive.

'cause everyone's growing

And everyone's healthy

I'm terrified that I might never have met me.

Oh, if my engine works perfect on empty

I guess I'll drive

I guess I'll drive.

So I forgot my medication

Fell into a manic high

Spent my savings at a lulu

Now I'm suffering in style

Why is pain so damn impatient

Ain't like it's got a place to be

Keeps rushing me.

But I ignore things

And I move sideways

'till I forget what

I felt in the first place.

At the end of the day

I know there are worse ways

To stay alive.

'cause everyone's growing

And everyone's healthy

I'm terrified that I might never have met me.

Oh, if my engine works perfect on empty

I guess I'll drive.

And if all my life was wasted

I don't mind I'll watch it go

It's better to die numb than feel at all.

Oh, if all my time was wasted

I don't mind I'll watch it go

It's better to die numb than feel at all.

So I ignore things

And I move sideways

'till I forget what

I felt in the first place.

At the end of the day

I know there are worse ways

To stay alive.

'cause everyone's growing

And everyone's healthy

I'm terrified that I might never have met me.

Oh, if my engine works perfect on empty

I guess I'll drive

I guess I'll drive.