I've been trying not to think about it, I can't help it

I know you don't wanna hear from me, but I am selfish

It kills me inside that you can drink on friday nights

Not even pick up the phone

It amazes me you move on so easily

From someone that you once called home.

I wish you had enough discipline for the both of us

Just because I don't know how to turn off the way I feel

I know you always fell out love so damn easily, but honestly

I don't think you ever had something real.

Until you met me

Drinks in new york city

Ooh, you looked so pretty

Think I fell in love before I even knew your birthday

Kissed you on our first date

Somehow, I knew someday

This would hurt 'cause I could never let you go

Oh, I'll spend my whole life

Missing a part of me, part of me

Oh, I'll spend my whole life

Hoping your heart is free, heart is free.

I've been trying not to think of this as something tragic

'cause our two paths might cross again, crazier things have happened

And I realize, lightning strikes just once not twice and shooting stars are burning rocks

So I spend weeks inside, drowing in those dreams of mine

And wondering if I'm worth your thoughts.

I wish you had enough discipline for the both of us

Just because I don't know how to turn off the way I feel

I know you always fell out love so damn easily, but honestly

I don't think you ever had something real.

Until you met me

Drinks in new york city

Ooh, you looked so pretty

Think I fell in love before I even knew your birthday

Kissed you on our first date

Somehow, I knew someday

This would hurt 'cause I could never let you go.

Do you not dream of me?

'cause I have visions in my sleep

I can't ever find my peace now

Do you wake up alone

And feel an aching in your bones?

Or are you happy without me now?

The first time that you told me

You thought that you loved me

That bar in the city

I thought you were drunk

But I knew deep down that you meant it

Wish that I had said it

I was scared to let it happen

But it happened and now I cannot forget it

Oh, I'll spend my whole life

Missing a part of me, part of me

Oh, I'll spend my whole life

Hoping your heart is free, heart is free.