Feels like it's rained in my head for a hundred days

Feels like it's rained in my head for a hundred days

Stare in the mirror and I look for another face

Stare in the mirror and I look for another face.

And I get so tired

Of putting out fires

And making up lies

Checking my eyes

For some kinda light

But nothing's inside.

And it feels like it's rained in my head for a hundred days.

And I say I hate you when I don't

Push you when you get too close

It's hard to laugh

When I'm the joke

But I can't do this on my...

Only you can save me from my lack of self-control

Sometimes bad things take the place where good things go.

I've asked for forgiveness a hundred times

I've asked for forgiveness a hundred times

Believed it myself when I halfway apologized

Believed it myself when I halfway apologized.

And it's not unfair

I'm asking for prayers

But nobody cares

Going nowhere

Like falling downstairs

While everyone stares.

No one's there when I've asked for forgiveness a hundred times.

And I say I hate you when I don't

Push you when you get too close

It's hard to laugh

When I'm the joke

But I can't do this on my...

Only you can save me from my lack of self-control

Sometimes bad things take the place where good things go.

No. I'm just taking a shot, ah...

Maybe I'm just too eager, oh...

Maybe I lost the plot, ha...

I used to pity some people, I

Said they were missing a spine, yeah...

Maybe the problem is ego

Maybe the

Maybe the problem is mine

Really I'm fine.

Don't get too intimate, don't get too curious

This is just feeling like it's not that serious

Stare at the ceiling, feeling delirious

Fuck all your empathy, I want your fury

'cause I will just

Tell you I'm better then, better then

Spit out my medicine, medicine, aye

Drunk on adrenaline, -drenaline, aye

And I don't know why I

Say I hate you when I don't

Push you when you get too close

It's hard to laugh when I'm the joke

But I can't do this on my...

Only you can save me from my lack of self-control

And I won't make excuses for the pain I caused us both

So thank you for always standing by me even though

Sometimes bad things take the place where good things go.