My double vision

Is only amplifying everything he isn't

Till I feel less attached and bored to death but listen

It's no one's fault, it's just my terrible condition.

And I've been thinking if I move out this year

I'll feel my parents slipping

Away and also I'm just scared of that commitment

I really think sometimes there's something that I'm missing.

Oh I know spiraling is miserable

I should probably go back home

Why does that feel difficult, difficult?

Oh I hope I wake up invisible

I'd be someone no one knows

I guess I'm just difficult.

To name this feeling

Would take a hundred thousand years, some kind of grieving

But over what I never had, so I've been speaking

To my therapist, I call her every weekend.

I meant to tell you

How I've hated how we left things when it fell through

'cause you were everything to me, where did you run to?

Was it something that I said that colored you blue?

Oh I know spiraling is miserable

I should probably go back home

Why does that feel difficult, difficult?

Oh I hope I wake up invisible

I'd be someone no one knows

I guess I'm just difficult, difficult.

Difficult

Difficult.

I've been drinking

And staying up too late reliving bad decisions

I thought eventually my ranting here would fix it

I really think sometimes there's something that I'm missing.

Oh I know spiraling is miserable

I should probably go back home

Why does that feel difficult, difficult?

Oh I hope I wake up invisible

I'd be someone no one knows

I guess I'm just difficult, difficult.

Oh I know spiraling is miserable

I should probably go back home

Why does that feel difficult, difficult?

Oh I hope I wake up invisible

I'd be someone no one knows

I guess I'm just difficult, difficult.