I'm sleeping too much and somehow not enough at the same time

The shower's my enemy, I've been avoiding the front lines, yeah

I justify self-medicating by saying, "It's just this time"

But one turned to two, and then three, now I see that they're warning signs.

Slowly slipping, start to spiral

Caught myself in self-denial

Guess I can't keep lying to my brain.

It's getting bad again (fuck)

I know myself and no, I can't pretend

It's getting bad again.

I'm watching my life from the passenger side of a train wreck

Someone cut the brakes but I don't even brace for the impact, and

I've been hit so many times to count

Wasted my energy, emptied my bank account

All for the sake of trying to change

Something that won't go away.

Slowly slipping, start to spiral

Caught myself in self-denial

Guess I can't keep lying to my brain.

It's getting bad again (fuck)

I hate this feeling, god, how I wish it would end

I know myself and no, I can't pretend

It's not too much, feel like giving up on this

It's getting bad.

(It's getting bad again)

Hold my breath, I'm going under

Try to fight this, I don't wanna

Feel like sinking any longer

It's getting bad

(It's getting bad again)

Hold my breath, I'm going under

Try to fight this, I don't wanna (it's getting bad again)

Feel like sinking any longer.

It's getting bad again

I know myself and no, I can't pretend

I hate this feeling, god, how I wish it would end

I know myself and no, I can't pretend

It's getting bad again.